On Nov. 8th, 2008, I went to see New Thrill Parade at Gilman. Brad was working the show, and apparently I'd mentioned to him that I'd seen New Thrill Parade a couple of times and they stayed at my house and they were cool people, because he called me and offered me a ride and everything. I think he wasn't looking forward to the show (he was volunteering at Gilman at the time, so he had to go) and that's why he invited me. Anyway, I'd been listening to this cheesy podcast about how to meet girls and I thought this would be a chance for me to go out and use the new skills I'd learned to my advantage when approached by any woman at Gilman that night. It wound up being a kind of weird night for me. They were understaffed and I was asked to work the door, which was cool, but for some reason I felt totally anti-social all night, and I spent most of the show in the back corner, reading.
That whole paragraph was totally unnecessary, but the reason I bring up that night, is that the woman who was kind of in charge of the show, (Well, Robert was actually in charge of the show, so I don't know why she was telling everyone what to do, but she was) was this cute girl with green hair and a boyfriend. The other attractive women at the show was this norm who looked kind of like Bridget Fonda and the girls from bands. But the green haired woman (I think her name was Jen.) I found on okcupid.com the other night when I was feeling lonely and desperate. I'm thinking about contacting her, because she's cute and she sounds pretty cool, plus, she's not a norm, and observant readers might remember that I've come to the conclusion I'm not going to be able to make a relationship work with a norm. It'd probably just be better to approach her in the real world though. Dating websites are a nice way to waste time now and then, but as a way to meet people, I feel about dating websites the same way Ebert feels about Xtro (1982) which he describes as 'a completely depressing, nihilistic...exercise in sadness.' I've never interacted with a person on okcupid.com without it ultimately making me feel more lonely than before.
At any rate, after Charlotte stood me up, I've been feeling like I'm never going to find someone. It's a horrible feeling, but I know from experience that hooking up with the first woman who pays attention to you is NOT a way to get oneself out of this manner of funk. I'm not sure what the answer is. Now I'm feeling way more depressed than when I started this post. Oy vey! I hope y'all are feeling okay now that you've read this whole thing. I hope this hasn't been a depressing, nihilistic exercise in sadness for you. Thanks for reading! Go think about unicorns or whatever makes you happy.